I was already rejoicing in my heart on Thursday night before my last paper on Friday. Had been sleeping at 4am for the past few days.. That caused me to lose my sleep. So I had a very long and friendly talk with God that night. I was so thankful for all the things that had happened and how God has been so faithful and gracious to me all these while. My stomach was in much pain since Thursday morning, and was thinking I might not make it for exam and CGM on Fri. However, I didn't want to repeat my module or postpone my exams and I was very excited and determined to go CGM to share of God's goodness. There's so many things that I wanted to share...
Today as I walked home from the mrt station, I can't help but feel thankful for all the things that had happened this whole year. Though I had a really tough and bad 2007 (the worst in all my 25 yrs), I'm thankful that at the beginning of the year till June, God revealed an area of weakness in my life which I had never realised. I didn't do well in my studies and had to give up my ministry as a result. I almost backslided.. (Yea, though I walked through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil). Pastor Zhuang's prayer of "God's stubborn love to not let me go", and Wen's "God is the Lifter of our head", kept me going on all these while.
June onwards was still very trying as I need to deal with a lot of issues in my life. I'm still recuperating, but I'm really thankful that this period gave me the focus to study and the strength to be independent. I believe I'll do MUCH better in my studies than I did last semester. Thank God for His grace!
I found my true friends.. Those who stood by me whether I'm a leader or not, those who love me for who I am, those who love me even after knowing my imperfections. I begin to treasure my friends more and spend more time with my mum at home. I'm really happy and thankful that I'm not a leader anymore. It had been great serving the Lord and His people, but I had gone off course, putting ministry above all. Ministry had taken time away from my studies, relationship with family, friends and God! The remembrance of long meetings and the phrase, "A leader makes things happen" freaks me out. I was unbalanced then. Now, relationships are more important than anything else. But to be balanced, I can't go without a ministry too. So I'm considering and praying about joining the CHC TV ministry! I want to try something new and something that I like... A side thought, I'm rather tired of dealing with people. Dealing with cameras should be easier.. cos they can't talk. Ha. I guess I'll get scolded by some people because of this statement. Anyway, I love God, my friends, mum and my brother more than before. I'm truly thankful to THEM!
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